yunikoneko: (virgo)
I woke up at 3am this morning and after 15 minutes of not being able to fall asleep, I finally relented and got out of bed. It doesn't really feel like getting a jump start on my day since I went directly to the internet, but I usually start my day by going directly to the internet, anyway. It's so easy to waste time looking at it.

Since it's so early, I haven't popped my pills, so I will have to remember to do it at 6a. Not a problem... I don't think.

Yesterday was fairly busy. I had to get up for my 9am appointment with Diane. I always look forward to my visits with her, though I'm also always touched with a bit of anxiety when it comes to confessing how unreliable I've been about checking my blood sugar or eating well or exercising regularly. Especially if it's something that shows up in my A1C.

I was less anxious yesterday, probably because I was too busy being keyed up over this term's projects for Robotics II and the new month in general. But it was a happy, excited keyed up and not the usual foreboding anxiety.

At any rate, the visit went well in that she commented on the steady improvement of my demeanor, not to mention my jubilance and renewed verve. Apparently I have had a very visible attitude adjustment. Unfortunately, my A1C has spiked a point. We waffled a bit over whether I should take additional medication but came to the conclusion that I will attempt to bring my numbers down through diet and activity. I think she might not have been so keen on letting me go without more meds had I not already come up with my Great Plan for February on my own and outlined it to her in detail. I included other facets of my lifestyle makeover, like finding more work and living more creatively. Then we talked about the potential pitfalls to my plan and what I could do to avoid them or at least climb out of them.

I really like having Diane as my CDE.

Robotics II went well. It helped that it was only review, and that I already knew half my students. I love small classes! I don't love that my boss has not yet e-mailed me the course materials she promised... in addition to having postponed the start of class. Class was supposed to start last week. I'm a little miffed that I was not contacted then, even moreso that she didn't happen to mention that I'd already missed a class when I asked if class couldn't be postponed until I had proper training. But I won't dwell... the new schedule has been put out and I was only missing one kid last week. And class went pretty well.

As mentioned on Monday's post, I don't have any firm plans for today.

I guess after I see Ben off, I will take a little walk and maybe head over to the Fresh-N-Easy.

Monday, not long after I finished posting, I walked over to the Fresh-N-Easy (2000 steps!) to procure stewed tomatoes, mushrooms, and onions for the cabbage soup I planned to have for lunch. I'd bought a head of cabbage last week for fish tacos, but only had used a quarter of it and hadn't really thought of what I'd do with the rest of it. I still have some left over so I might make coleslaw. Anyway, it was the first time I'd been in there in over a year. I really don't understand Ben's aversion to it.. their prices are basically the same if not better than other stores' club pricing, and I don't have to have a club card. Okay.. I get why he might not want to buy their prepackaged produce... but OMG their mushrooms are clean!! I buy boxed salad anyway at Vons, and most of their produce looked good as far as I could tell. My soup turned out great, anyway.

I decided that instead of doing our usual weekly shopping trip to Vons, I'd walk to Fresh-N-Easy and shop every day or every other day. I'm really enamored with this idea because it means that not only will I walk another 2000 steps, but I won't have so much food going bad on me when we neglect to eat it. I hate throwing away half a box of salad every week because I can't keep up with it.

After reading some reviews, I will have to be wary of purchasing their instant or almost instant meals. They are apparently not so healthy. But, since I'm really focusing more on cooking on my own and eating less processed food anyway, I don't think this will be a problem.

So, today, after I see Ben off, I will probably walk on over to Fresh-N-Easy to get lunch fixings for today and dinner fixings for tomorrow (tonight, I plan on making salmon with veggies). Then I'll drop off my prescription at CVS before hitting the library. I'll probably work on some chartsngrafs I've been putting off doing, or do some pantry cleaning. Later I'll give myself a couple of hours to focus on my RPMC2010 entry. And maybe take another walk or wii Active up some tennis. Maybe not all in that order.
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Coalition to inspire cultural change through the promotion of science and technology
(this is so CAT.. but where's the art?)
San Diego robotics competition
Carnegie Mellon University Robotics Academy


Oct. 16th, 2008 01:02 pm
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Because of a parts issue, I'm going to have to have my kids today start completely over.

On the bright side, they are working entirely out of their own brand new kits and hopefully clean-up will be easier.

Also, I found out there's a cool little print shop right before the entrance to the 56 that does cheap color copies in addition to other fantastical printing services I might employ when I've gotten back into the art thing.

I just want to stay home with my new baby.

I can't decide whether my desktop should be "Ben Ponders the Ceiling Fan" or "Lilu and the Fondant Bots."


Oct. 10th, 2008 06:08 pm
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from [ profile] twotone

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Labrador Retriever

The Caretaker

Your family is what makes you tick, and you never "flea" from an opportunity to hang out with the whole gang. A family picnic complete with hot dogs, deviled eggs and a refreshing swim in the lake is hard for you to stray from. Your sparky temperament and dogged intelligence mean you are not only a blast to hang out with, but great to work with as well. Your close pals appreciate your patience and forgiveness, knowing you'd rather let sleeping dogs lie than dwell on the mishaps of the past. Your dashing good looks may one day lead to a modelling career, if only you can tame the unfortunate clumsiness that sometimes causes you to go flailing from the catwalk.

Why, looky. I am a teacher. :)

I am sore. But today was awesome. I love my Del Mar Heights kids, and I feel like I've really got this class under control. I think I'm going to have to work on that with my other set of third graders, but next week Fritz is coming to help manage that class. Solana Pacific feels like a lost cause in comparison to both... which sucks, because I like the Solana Beach district much more than the Del Mar district.

I still have work to do tonight, though, if the other classes are going to run smoothly. That is... I'm missing a bunch of parts so I need to forward a list asap to my boss. But it's such a pain in the butt dragging crates up two flights of stairs.
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I woke up super anxious this morning, as my last day at TRU was last week but I haven't heard from VT in over a week. So I e-mailed the Program Director, but will probably call her tomorrow if I don't get a response this evening. She's otherwise been good at responding to her e-mail. So, here's hoping.

I think this anxiety may be contributing to my hypochondria. I've felt some discomfort around my lower back... but it's not the same place as when I was admitted to the hospital. I'm worried because for the past two or three days, my bladder has seemed particularly small. I know I need to schedule a follow up with Dr. C but I also need my CMS card so I won't have to pay for any of my diabetes-related care. That I should be getting on Wednesday or Thursday... if it hasn't arrived, I'm supposed to go see Tony so he can hurry along the paperwork and I won't have to foot a $34.5k bill. Yes, it's gone up from $32k because of the ambulance ride and the blood work.

Anyway... I think the back discomfort is probably me just focusing too much on it. The other day, Vil and I were talking about that phenomenon of pain intensification with focus vs. dulling without and it's totally true. If I give myself an insulin shot without really thinking about what I'm doing, I barely feel anything. But if I hesitate at all, I have a harder time injecting and it hurts more because I'm too aware of it.

Okay. I'm going to finish doing dishes and go tot up a list of what I need from the grocery store, because I'm cooking Adobong Pusit. For some reason, when I woke up this morning, I had the peculiar desire to de-beak and de-quill two pounds of squid.
yunikoneko: (objects in space)
After reading about his acrylic and layered plexi method, I really wish I could see one of Ben Strawn's window box paintings in real life. I like them, anyway, but I suspect that having just a print won't do, for me... especially since they look so dated but have the texture of "contemporary" mediums.

Separately, I stayed for an extra hour and a half today to cover R-Zone. This resulted in a credit application and the selling of a $65 2-year buyer protection bundle, but an unintended consequence is that I missed the opportunity to call my CMS agent at Pomerado. Note to self: his Tuesday/Thursday hours are from 2-5p. Suck. Anyway, I left a message but said I'd be following up, so... yeah. Hopefully things work out okay. I'm antsy because my original CMS appointment was supposed to be this morning. I'm trying not to freak out too much about it since there's nothing I can do, but all I can think of is how broke I am until a week from tomorrow.

Well, okay, I'm not broke enough to cancel my unbirthday party on Sunday, but there is a good chance that the cake really is a lie.
yunikoneko: (woot cookies)
I wound up going to the grocery store for some little things because TRU has scheduled me every day for the rest of this week. They finally upgraded the registers and pinpads, but now I have to familiarize myself with them, just as I'm on my last couple weeks working there. Ploo. Not that it looks particularly difficult: the software is still the same, I think.

I'm assuming that I'm scheduled a lot because I'm one of many an associate fleeing in the mass exodus from TRU. I guess Adam's already gone, and a couple others are planning to quit. It's pretty much the cool kids, except for three or four who are staying.. but who knows how well they'll weather another Season.

Enough dwelling on old soul-killing retail stint, I'm waiting for the paperwork to arrive for my new career, and this is where it begins!

Hum. I'm doing kind of a bad job of not procrastinating/sticking to my list before Ben gets home. I left later than intended, but did stop off at the bank to deposit my check and picked up some salad fixings, lunch fixings, and light cranberry juice... all of which I hope holds us over for the rest of the week, not counting my unbirthday not-a-party.

Also, while I was at TRU I bought a Wii Wheel, or Wii-l, if you will, despite the fact that it's not Nintendo licensed, as I'd originally thought. ::nosewrinkle:: It's pink and I like it. I played the 50cc Mushroom Cup just before I made this post. I only managed third place (I got first in the first two tracks but came in dead last on the last one), which is sadly my personal best. Hey, I don't play many video games... at least not with the same fervor and regularity as my counterpart.

Okay. I think I'm going to take a nap until three and then try and finish the rest of my list.
yunikoneko: (boldly going nowhere)
I told myself that I would quit Toys R Us by the end of the summer, but I also have a long and solid history of promising myself things and not following through because life manages to go on no matter what I do. It isn't the greatest attitude. I know I could be doing more to contribute to my over-all happiness. Sometimes I just don't know what it is, or else, I do know what it is, and despite my external "whatever" attitude, I'm still overcome by fear that I would fail, so I wind up not trying at all. Which is stupid, because, well, life goes on. It will go on whether I feel dissatisfied for sitting back and doing nothing, or whether I feel dissatisfied for trying to accomplish something and failing miserably. And we all know the latter dissatisfaction should feel more satisfying, or at least more honorable.

I wish I could take the attitude that there is nothing relying on the new job I'm interviewing for, on Saturday. If I don't get the job, things will continue as always. I'll stay at TRU and pick up full time hours from October to Christmas, which will probably only slightly help finance our hypothetical wedding. It's not likely we'll go to Japan, next year... or at least, not in time for the Sakura festival. If we don't make it, I'll probably just want to wait another year. Or, I'll quit TRU anyway and pick up any part-time I can get in the more nearby vicinity, in the meantime continuing mainly to work on my portfolio while allowing myself to be picky about other potential employment opportunities. I'm sure that will drive my mom crazy.

Instead, I am haunted by the thought that I need this job, not only to put my parents' minds at ease, but because I will be doing something I find truly worthwhile and rewarding, instead of feeling emotionally beaten for caring irrationally about consumers. Ben is right, I need a job where my clientele is worthy of my devotion to their well-being.

In addition, I will be raking in at least twice as much money, and at best almost three times as much money as I am making now, per hour. And I will have a solid schedule, so I can do as I please in the mornings, and am guaranteed Sundays off.

Argh. I don't want to think about it. The prospect is too exciting.

And now I have to go to work. At least I get off at three.


May. 14th, 2008 12:11 pm
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No on the Hunter Douglas front.

No call back yet on the Mercury front.

yunikoneko: (Default)
My free Continental-something-or-other waffle iron arrived at my parents' house last week but I just got around to christening it this morning. Perhaps the peculiar state of my waffles was the iron's vain attempt to tell me I should have waited for an opportunity such that Ben and I could both enjoy it, since it was Ben's idea to order the iron, in the first place, and Ben's idea to try Organic Batter Blaster.

I imagine it's probably actually a lesson about getting the right results with the right effort: If you want better "freshly made" waffles, don't use a spray can.

They actually taste fine, they just look and feel funny.

I've got to get to work. Hopefully it won't be long before that doesn't mean TRU. I just want to put in my notice NOW.
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did not realize pants were inside-out until I tried to hook my walkie into my belt loop. How does this happen?

could not adjust pants until lunch break, so wore them inside-out until about 2:30 in the afternoon

Brenda let me off work slightly early, as everyone thought I was only scheduled until 4:30, anyway

today sucked because only me, Anna, and Julian were working the floor while everyone else was in a staff meeting... 3 associates do not a giant toy store run

jackass of a customer saw how busy and understaffed we were but still thought it in his best interest to call an hour later and yell at me over the phone for being incompetent

forgot to get a Birthday Club balloon for my dad... alas

must call back Complete Campaigns; I may be a data wrangler. Yay.
yunikoneko: (Default)
America's Most Overrated Product: The Bachelor's Degree

oukewldave 2008-04-29 07:41:22 PM
I love my bachelors degree. It makes me automatically over qualified for some jobs and under qualified for the rest.
/How do you get experience in a job when no one will hire people without experience?


ironic_followup 2008-04-29 07:44:15 PM
if you're like me, all of that goes hand in hand: You're in college to have more time for beer and video games - time you wouldn't have in real life.
That's why I went to college.
That's why I'm in grad school.

Bart: I was so bored I cut the pony tail off the guy sitting in front of us. Look at me, I’m a grad student! I’m 30 years old and I made $600 last year!

Marge: Bart, don’t make fun of grad students, they just made a terrible life choice.

(Searched YouTube, but they took it down.)

So the supervisor who recommended me for Staples doesn't have as much clout as she thinks she does, or else the hiring manager saw my BA and doesn't want to hire me for more than minimum wage... because all I've been getting is the run around. On the bright side, I had a pre-interview with Mercury Auto Insurance yesterday for a position as a Support Spec. Bill, their HR, kept pushing the fact that since I have my BA I have the option of eventually training to be a claims adjuster. He also kept pushing their comprehensive benefits package, available after the fourth month of working there. I hope I wasn't sniffing a false reek of desperation, as I am scheduled for a personality test/interview on May 9th. Come on regular hours!

Today, I wound up picking up an hour because Liz had some kind of family emergency. I hate being service area, because you're pretty much trapped there and dependent on others to handle some calls. I had a line in the front for returns and a line in the back for purchases and the phones ringing off the hook. It seemed really weird for a Wednesday. It was like Christmas, all over again. Except for the dead spot.

Anyway... worst headache ever. Going to nap.
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They stuck me at the credit application table for an hour or so, yesterday, but I got no sign-ups. Not for lack of trying. It's just kind of difficult to say "Would you like to save 15% on today's purchases by signing up for instant credit?" in the half-second a customer is walking past, ignoring me completely. I got two "maybes" at best before they put D--- at the table. D--- is a nice enough lady, if you take the time to get to know her, but she's kind of scary. Maybe that's how she keeps getting credit apps. I'm too nice/not scary enough.

I actually have a harder time getting credit apps on the weekend, despite the fact that the probability should be in my favor: more customers, more opportunities, right? Well, it's always so busy that no one wants to hold up the line. One woman didn't mind holding up the line, though... an expectant mother whose really big transaction I had to void twice because she didn't have enough cash. I couldn't just clear out to the sale menu to remove items because she paid with gift cards and so there were "tenders present." She could probably see that I was visibly annoyed... It wasn't so much that I had to ring her up three times as it was that my line was getting backed up and none of the cashiers on the floor were responding.

Fortunately, I got off at three. I fell asleep shortly after I got home and didn't wake up 'til 8. Afterwards, I ate dinner, did the first chapter exercises in my Japanese workbook, im-ed with Ben, then went to bed at midnight and slept a full 8 hours. I'm rested, so... today shouldn't be too crazy.

I know it's kind of ridiculous since I see Ben probably more often than most couples who have been dating the equivalent amount of time, but yesterday I really missed the after-work-hug-and-kiss. I almost always feel better immediately after, no matter how crappy my day was. This, as [ profile] meatballsoda pointed out, is totally true.

Oh, yeah. Happy St. Patrick's day.


Mar. 6th, 2008 03:27 pm
yunikoneko: (Default)
I just walked into Geppetto's dressed in my Toys R Us uniform and asked for a job application. Haha.
yunikoneko: (boldly going nowhere)
I've been to a group interview before. But that wasn't a group interview, that was a cattle call! There were something like thirty people in a very tiny office. We barely had a minute of face time with the Doc, and the woman we were corresponding with wasn't even there!!

The good news is, I'll know whether or not they picked me from the resume lottery by noon. Hopefully the guy remembers I know how to build a website and hires me on for that reason. There were so many people in the medical field there. A retired RN, a Ukranian MD.

Unlikely though.
yunikoneko: (Goodie!)
The printer in the office worked so I didn't have to stop at Kinko's to print my resume, I got the last spinach and bacon baked egg souffle at Panera, and tonight I have an interview to be an admin assistant at a nice little beach-front Chiropractic office. I am nervous as heck, but I always get nervous, and at least I'm a far more happy, confident person than I used to be. Plus I talked to Ben last night, and we concluded that although it would be really awesome if I did get this job, it's not the end of the world if I don't, and when we're eventually living together, I can take any old job and be able to start paying my parents back.

I also talked to Katie, last night, and she informed me that A---- got engaged to her part-time lover. She showed me a picture of the ring, which was MAJOR BLING. I bet it's blinding in real life. It's got lots of ice. Six diamonds in two columns, with a bunch of tiny diamonds embedded in the band. There's barely any band at all-- it's almost all diamond. It must be huge. I really don't understand.

I think I'd either want a band with a pretty, vine-like filigree and no stones, or a plain tension-set or embedded stone, in titanium. Or hell, just a plain, narrow, tungsten-carbide band. Maybe the latter is a bit mannish, but I'm fond of the symbolism of having an aircraft-grade titanium or tungsten-carbide band. Hell, maybe we could get a binary inscription.

I dunno, my mom's band is plain. I think she has another with some inset diamonds, and one my dad bought later with a very high set diamond, but she only wears the plain one. It seems the most pleasing and user-friendly to me, like, it won't get caught in anything and it's... well, not gaudy.

Also, when I was a little girl, I had a gold ring shaped like a vine with two leaves on it. I loved that ring; my dad gave me that ring. He'd gotten it in Saudi Arabia. One night, we went to Chuck E. Cheese. I'd played a game of whack-a-mole, and was quite distressed to find that the ring had bent on my hand. I cried because I'd been so proud to have a real gold ring and here I thought he'd tricked me and given me a fake one. It had to be explained to me that gold rings are made of alloys, and that the more gold there is in a ring, the softer it is.

So anyway, that's kind of what turned me off to gold. I suppose there's silver or platinum, but I rather like the idea of a titanium or tungsten-carbide ring.


Feb. 25th, 2008 03:40 pm
yunikoneko: (original sin)
Ben made me lunch, today, which I did not eat (or, rather, have not eaten yet) because my manager Mike let me go home before I had the opportunity to have a lunch. My voice is becoming stronger, but unfortunately my bruised rib is giving me hell. It was alright when I was free-standing last Wednesday, but got irritated whenever I would sit or lie against something. Yesterday it was horribly painful and this morning only slightly less so. But there was no one to come in, so I decided to stick it out at least until the next cashier came. I guess I'm glad I did because it was Brenda's birthday and someone brought in cake. Brenda was so excited because it was the first time in her 20 years of working in retail that somebody brought her a birthday cake.

Josh invited me over to watch a gory zombie flick. I'd said "no" because I thought I would be working late, but I think I'll still pass because I'm tired and I think I just want to go rest. Or peruse more job listings. Yesterday, TRU called to see if I could work, but I passed on the opportunity for more hours because 1) I was in a lot of pain, and 2) I said if I didn't take the extra hours which I desperately need, I'd at least update my resume. Not that there was much updating required. I now have two versions... My "artist's resume," and the generic one I'd modify depending on what job I was applying to.

I don't think I've seen Josh and Russ since the New Year's Eve party, and I do miss them. But... ugh, I dunno, I just don't want to go out. I can't wait 'til I'm healthy again. I've felt so lazy and helpless this past month.

Anyway, I think I'm going to go have my lunch and then nap.
yunikoneko: (boldly going nowhere)
After I updated [ profile] beyondramen, I started poking around random Picasa web albums.. namely, people's vacations to Japan. I've known for a while I've wanted to visit Studio Ghibli (pronounced "Jibli") after seeing [ profile] orriettacat's post about her trip, there, but I didn't know it would be an ordeal to visit. We should plan accordingly. :)

I did not expect to want to visit the Tokyo Disney Resort (Disneyland is Disneyland, right?), but after perusing this album, I want to visit DisneySea Park!!! There's a mermaid grotto!!!

::explodes from excitement::

In less-exciting news, I will finally actually be able to sit down and update my resume. I've been needing to do it, but not as much as I need to do it, now, because my hours were cut drastically, at work. I only work two days, next week, and not even full days. At least they're keeping me on, for now. I talked to Manager Mike after work and he urged me to polish my resume because I'm "a bright and talented young lady" and I could be doing so much better than this. Well, not to sound cocky, but I know that. I mean, I know it better, now. It's still nice to hear.

It kind of makes me miss Andrea. I doubt I'd have such a bright and sunny attitude at work if it wasn't for her emphasizing how important one's attitude and openness is, in the global community or in any community. I think I read on one of Stephie's away messages, once, a quote I really liked: "Everything is important, or nothing is." I like the sentiment, but at the same time I can feel myself being stretched very thinly.

I live with my bandmate and I miss him. I know I haven't been around because of my new boyfriend and constantly changing work schedule. I haven't picked up a guitar to write in ages... I haven't even futzed around in GB. I have no excuses since the album is out, already. It's been really awesome having someone else rock my world, for a change, but I miss rocking, too. I want to have a balanced social life and a balanced creative life, for once. It wasn't balanced then because, although I was pouring my efforts into writing music with one of my best friends, I was writing from this constant state of heartbreak. And now that I'm not heartbroken anymore, I've stopped writing.

I don't think (or, at least, I don't want to think) my musical inclination is wholly dependent on being in that state of heartbreak, but it's hard to tell because I've been in it, for so long. Anyway, it's a new year, and I know now it's possible for me to move forward, and sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

I don't work, tomorrow. Jam session, anyone?
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i just worked an eleven hour shift. holy crap.

yunikoneko: (doom.)
as is becoming the norm for the holiday season, i wound up stuck at the register for half an hour longer than i ought to have been because customers like to ignore the fact that i turned my light off. actual conversation had between me and a customer last friday:

customer: (approaching my register) are you open?
me: i'm afraid not, ma'am. my light is off and she's (points to customer at pinpad) my last one.
customer: this is ridiculous!
me: no, ma'am, what's ridiculous is when five people line up at my register even though my light has been off for the past ten minutes.
custmer: well, i never! (hurls what appears to be a push pop down the aisle and storms towards the exit)
me: actually, you just did.

another 'tudey customer approached me asking if we had any more wowee-mini spiderman bots which were on special today. i was checking an item for a customer on the phone and i had another one on the floor already so i asked if she'd already checked the aisle and she snapped at me, "well if i saw any i wouldn't be asking you." so i walked down the aisle and retrieved one for her because clearly she was blind.

what really bugged me is that today i went to samurai sam's and the girl at the cash register gave me 10% off my order by virtue of the mall discount. why did it bug me? because i've been going to samurai sam's for my lunch break ALMOST EVERY WORK DAY FOR THE PAST MONTH AND A HALF AND NOBODY EVER TOLD ME ABOUT THE MALL DISCOUNT. i saw the little worm who usually processes my order and wanted to throttle him. i could have saved tens of... dollars. three or four tens of dollars, in fact.

anyway. so tired. i'm trying to unwind, now.


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